Morning time 1991 . someone tickle me in tummy and before i open eyes i feel myself on someone's back . i know that someone.. soon my lazyness changed to big laugh's.. she and me playing aero-plane... this was "RANI" the main character of this post... she always coem with her mom to clear our home ( servants daughter ) she was 17 but she is more child inside . rani and her mother come to clean our home everyday and she always play with me a lot... we use to fight a lot. coz i 'm always a fighter jet.... one day my mom dad was to gone to somewhere and i was alone at home.... Rani come she was look so crushed. marks of scratches was on her face... i always i try to start playing with her but she didnt respond..she open my moms almira (wardrobe) and pick 1 pair of cloths and then she change and go out .... from that day i never see "RAni" again .
we shifted home and all memories left behind, i start a cell-phone repairing shop in 2005 and i contact with people. few people from her area told me that she be come most high rated prostitute on city... i didnt believe what i heard... i even cant ask this to anyone . i try to dig more about this but i come to knowledge that she also shifted to "Ludhiana"( other city) . so again dust start covering memories . ....
September 5 ... i was in ludhiana to visit my friend . i was waiting for him in a coffee store, i see there a big laugh on table next to me. there was 3 girls laughing. soon they stand up and ready to go... i see and try to recognize one of them.... she she pass near by i said " Rani" she look me and didnt said a word... she sit on table and other girls just keep walking . they know that we gonna talk.... i order a new coffee. and we wait again.. coffee come and we start sipping.. it all take more then 45 min...she was sitting next to me and we were drinking cofee but nither one of said a single word.....
we were just sitting...i cant even think to ask anything , i was just lost in past...almost blank . feeling like i was ni where and no one around me.. it was weird but i didnt know where was i that time... after 45 min..she put hand on my sholder and said deepu i have to go...and she left. after she go i realize that i was in coffee shop... i see few people looking at me. now she was gone and i want ask her a question "why". but time was gone . she was gone. Rani wasnt there...i even not see her going outside. just sitting there like a dumb tool.. i was actully full of question now.. but no one to answer so i put my head down and i dunno when river of tears come to my eyes and it didnt seems to stop at all ... i dunno how much time i keep crying but then i feel some fingers in my hair. someone there. when i pick up head i see "RANI" she was there.. may be she also cant afford to walk away from me , i put my head on her shoulder and start crying again but this time differently.. this time another river join me. it was her tears.
i dunno how much time we kept crying but whenever i try ask her something just words not come out from my lips... i lost my tongue, my words, myself.. i feel like she also not want talk..first she want share all her pain to his little bro . to me... and i like to be her partner in her pain. i want her to put all her tears out, i want her to feel relax, but whom me kidding , actually i was putting my pain out too. from the day i heard that she become prostitute . i was in deep shock..
later we both feel little better and we start talk.. i cant explain how many time my voice stop coz of full with pain..and i start cry again.. and same happen to her... she told me that " one day she go to clean home of a rich man and she was alone.. she got raped by that man. and that was the day last time i see her... she didnt have father only mother so no one fight for for justice . rich man give some money to her and all keep quite. but the main problem start afterward. all know that she been victim , Rani told me that even her own uncles start acting like hungry wolfs. after years of fight.. she stop fighting .. and this is how she become what she is now...
i dunno how to end this post..what massage i will give and to whom... everyone of us have a wolf inside us. but a small mistake can destroy someones life.. Rani is always a sister and i always stay with her....
on 25 Oct that rich man come to our shop, i was there so he talk to me . he want me to start some work for him. but i bluntly said "no" . i know this didnt make any difference to him. but i feel inside that by saying him "no" i took a revange of "RAni" on a very small scale.... cant write more..dont wanna cry/..........
